Make up Your Mind Young Man…

What if life were a straight path, defined not be free will and choice, but rather a fixed series of events? If we never had to endure a major life decision or a fork in the road how then would we reflect back on what we did? Life’s tough decisions are those which define and shape us into who we are and what we will become. For this reason they are not and should not be, easy decisions to make. Seven and a half months have passed by me at a rate in which I could never have possibly conceived. This time has been spent far away from the country and people whom I love. Soon I will have to make a decision, that being, to stay in Korea or make my way home. I’m not sure that I have ever had to make a tougher decision.

Admittedly when I first arrived to this peninsula I was not keen on the idea of sticking around too long. I suppose the culture shock, coupled with feelings of homesick and and what I first perceived to be bad food made me think that Korea was at most a temporary stay. Then I started to embrace all that was different, meet wonderful people, experience a foreign culture and appreciate it. I also began to not only accept the food, but love it. So here I am, my fork in the road awaits, and while there is still plenty time to make that tough decision, time, like it so often does, seems to speed up in moments such as these.

Sometimes I am greedy. I wish for a window to peer into the future to help make my decisions. In this yearning, what often happens is that I put major decisions on the back burner, allow more time to pass and procrastinate until my wits end. But who doesn’t? Perhaps that is what makes life exhilarating and not mundane. And hell, I work good under pressure. When the snowball gets bigger and the task more insurmountable, that is when I’d like to think that I have made some of my biggest accomplishments and best decisions.

Moral of this story: I am no closer to making my decision and well, that’s just fine by me, at least for now.

Until next time

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